Two years ago, I experienced my first spiritual retreat traveling solo thousands of miles from home to a lush island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. It was the first time I experienced Tea πŸ™πŸΌπŸ΅βœ¨Within the first or second sip, I cried into my bowl in front of 15+ women I just met. Being held in sacred circle around women is a beautiful and deeply healing experience.

This morning, I sat in a beautiful container of women to experience her loving presence again. I shared what she πŸƒ taught me over 25 πŸŒ™ new moons ago. What I reflected on today is that I’ve cultivated so much love for myself I didn’t gift myself then. Living almost 3 decades with self-inflicted suffering and doing the work to transform all that into self-love is not as pretty or easy as it may seem on this digital app.

The nourishing retreats, women’s circles, tea ceremonies, daily practices, lessons and challenges supported me. But the one who support the deep healing and created the gift of my life and purpose is myself. I am a healer for myself, my lineage, and my community. What the real shamans and authentic guides say is true. That we are our own best healer. That what we perceive to be our biggest weakness is our strength. Mine is sensitivity, compassion, and open vulnerability.

I’m grateful for the experiences, tea sisters, and sacred spaces like Ay Am that have sparked + supported me in my journey. I’m filled with so much love, inspiration, presence, creativity, and purpose. Today and every day I’m honored to gift myself what will always be accessible to all of us and completely free - self-compassion.

I am so honored to continually share my experiences on this platform to inspire and influence cultivating lovingkindness, self-healing and living in alignment to your nature and intent. πŸ™πŸΌπŸŒΏβœ¨